Monday, 20 February 2012

Kill me. Kill me now.

One day, life won't be so complicated. 
There is still hope.
Everything is going to be alright.
I don't need to grow up.
There is always a bright sunny morning after the dark, depressing night.
I am sure there's the perfect person for me out there, waiting for me.
Jo hota hai, ache ke liye hota hai.

Or maybe, I was just looking at the world through a tinted glass sheet, painted in my own colors. And now, it has begun to gradually lift, exposing a world which I am just not ready to face. Not yet. Maybe never.
Sick of being misunderstood, sick of regretting things I shouldn't have to regret, sick of getting punished for decisions which weren't even mine. Sick of being told I am so and so person's most treasured possession, yet being unloved in every way possible. Tired of trying to live up to people's expectations, while knowing mine will never be fulfilled. Can't let anymore people down, can't be a burden for my loved ones. Not anymore. FUCKING SICK of being suicidal all the goddamn time, of knowing there is no hope for me. IS there no hope for me?


  1. there's a million of people (girls) out there who feel the same.
    stop doing bhings just cos' people expect you to, or you might let people down. It's okay to make mistakes.
    but, it's not okay to disappoint yourself.

    dont know if it made sense, but yeaah.
    lots of love. xx

  2. @Aka. Everything.
    @Happy Noodle. It made perfect sense. Thanks :)

  3. Not here babe. Some other time :)

  4. Life is not fair and sure as hell does not go the way we like! It is only the belief in oneself that helps one get by. never regret anything, as whatever you did you wanted to do that at that time. There are many people out there who are proud of you, many you admire you and many more who look up to you.

    Take it easy.

    Lots of Love :)

  5. You are right, as always :)
    Though I beg to disagree with the last part.
    Trying :)
    Love :)

  6. oye! i hope this is fiction! there is always hope. even in death. even beyond death!

  7. in that case, may i just barge in and dare ask what happened?

    1. Well, just a lot of things in general :)

  8. And though it seems there may be no hope.
    A clairvoyant voice in the back of your head.
    Will always be there at every moment.
    And you will live.

    I guess everyone can relate to this at some point in their lives. I know I can.
    Good stuff. :)


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