Friday, 15 July 2011

I Hate You(And I definitely don't love you)

Hatred. It's a powerful emotion indeed. It consumes you,takes over your soul, messes up with your mind. You lose your ability to make rational decisions.It's destructive, yet unavoidable.
I had never felt so much hatred in my life before. In fact, when I look back upon my life, I don't think I ever hated someone with so much intensity. So much that my blood boiled at the mere mention of The Name. I clenched my fists on seeing The Face. I cursed myself for ever setting my eyes on anything that reminded me of That Person. I let the hatred rule over my life, my relationships, my thoughts and my actions.I had always been a pragmatic individual. Most of the things I did or said were carefully calculated. I wasn't one of those impulsive, aggressive, easily driven by hormones sort of a person. Known for my timidity and tact, I was one of the last people to ever get into a fight or lose my temper. Till That Person came along. And my life took a 180 degrees turn. All I could do was sit and watch in silent horror as I let all the relationships in my life slowly and painfully crumble before my eyes. All I could do was sit and watch. Today, I'm a loner. I regret, I repent, yet I'm unable to relinquish all that hatred which is till captured inside my heart like a caged bird, desperate for freedom. I've been deserted by all those who cared, all those who loved me, yet the suppressed frustration and rage lingers.Hatred consumes. It kills.




This is a work of fiction as the people who know me would have guessed by now, considering I am ANYTHING but timid and tactful :P

9 comments:

  1. True hate and true love are equally hard to find. They don't happen on an everyday basis, but once in a blue moon. And transcend times.

    Nice post.

    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  2. SOMETIMES HATRED IS GOOD.IT MAKES YOU STRONG.IT IMPROVES YOU.IT TRANSCENDS YOU TO TAKE BETTER CHOICES.I LOVE TO HATE.

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  3. I've never hated someone with so much intensity either. I wonder, if that would happen, ever?

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  4. Haha. Erm. Thank God you added the disclaimer in the end.. :P
    But beautifully expressed.. And no, to that comment above- hatred is never good.

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  5. @remya.....Everyone have their perspective.Sometimes i just love to hate,and you will never understand this because what I've seen in my life,you did not.

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  6. Give in to the hatred and let it flow. Let it flow until it fills you up completely and you are nothing more than an animal with the barest of emotions. Let it take over you for it is only then that we truly realise who we are.
    Nice read. :)

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  7. No, but I will DEFINITELY read it now. :D
    And yes, I just had to read everything! This is an excellent blog. :)
    Also because thankfully, the number of posts didn't overwhelm me and because I have the time right now. Pretty good, huh? :D
    And thank you machi, for putting me in your good books. I will make sure I remain in there. You better keep posting to make sure. :P
    I'm glad I made your day. Again, hopefully. :)

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