You'd think I was rotting in the lowest pit of hell.
Fortunately, I've actually been bubbling at the bottom of a cauldron full of awesomeness. :D
Geez who am I kidding, my life absolfuckinglutely sucks.
Meet Ruhani C. 5'2[Don't roll your eyes, contrary to popular perception, I am NOT 4'2. -.-] Fair. Belonging to a Punjabi family settled in Delhi.
No I am not 25 and no I am not getting married. There is just nothing more to me than THIS anymore. "Happy Roo" is nothing short of a legend now, and the sound of my own laughter surprises me. I am easily confused, perennially frustrated, and surprisingly lonely for a person who is constantly surrounded by a hell lot of people. I isolate myself when in doubt, break things when I am pissed off, get nasty when preoccupied.
The end of the world, Y U NO COME ALREADY?
I am not the biggest fan of change, and everything around me is changing so rapidly, leaving me out of breath ,desperately trying to keep up. Old relationships crumbling, new ones disappointing me in every sense of the word. Breakdowns come to me as naturally as sneezing fits and their frequency is increasing at an unprecedented rate.
All those people who were insisting on me getting back on Blogger, not so happy about me getting back, are you now? :P
BUT having said all of that, I am going to be happy. This new person, I don't like her. Not one fucking bit. That happy-go-lucky person who didn't give a fuck about anything or anyone has got to get back, and that too with a with a BigBloodyBang! So I'm going to dance, and blog, and jog, and smile, and laugh, and chatter on, and do every single thing that I love to do. Every single thing that made me ME. So move over unsuccessful friendships, and unjust companions and terminated love stories. I may not have stability or love in my life right now, but I sure have hope in my heart. :)
WHAT DOES A GIRL HAVE TO DO TO GET A HUG AROUND HERE? :|
Sitting, waiting, wishing.
Roo.
Fortunately, I've actually been bubbling at the bottom of a cauldron full of awesomeness. :D
Geez who am I kidding, my life absolfuckinglutely sucks.
Meet Ruhani C. 5'2[Don't roll your eyes, contrary to popular perception, I am NOT 4'2. -.-] Fair. Belonging to a Punjabi family settled in Delhi.
No I am not 25 and no I am not getting married. There is just nothing more to me than THIS anymore. "Happy Roo" is nothing short of a legend now, and the sound of my own laughter surprises me. I am easily confused, perennially frustrated, and surprisingly lonely for a person who is constantly surrounded by a hell lot of people. I isolate myself when in doubt, break things when I am pissed off, get nasty when preoccupied.
The end of the world, Y U NO COME ALREADY?
I am not the biggest fan of change, and everything around me is changing so rapidly, leaving me out of breath ,desperately trying to keep up. Old relationships crumbling, new ones disappointing me in every sense of the word. Breakdowns come to me as naturally as sneezing fits and their frequency is increasing at an unprecedented rate.
All those people who were insisting on me getting back on Blogger, not so happy about me getting back, are you now? :P
BUT having said all of that, I am going to be happy. This new person, I don't like her. Not one fucking bit. That happy-go-lucky person who didn't give a fuck about anything or anyone has got to get back, and that too with a with a BigBloodyBang! So I'm going to dance, and blog, and jog, and smile, and laugh, and chatter on, and do every single thing that I love to do. Every single thing that made me ME. So move over unsuccessful friendships, and unjust companions and terminated love stories. I may not have stability or love in my life right now, but I sure have hope in my heart. :)
WHAT DOES A GIRL HAVE TO DO TO GET A HUG AROUND HERE? :|
Sitting, waiting, wishing.
Roo.
YOU'RE BACK. :'D
ReplyDeleteAnd no, I am still happy that you're blogging again.
Blogging is kinda therapeutic in its own way. It'll help you get through this! :)
And here you go:
*virtual blog hug*
See, you just had to ask!
PEABAAAAAAAY! You are actually my most faithful follower. Damn, I love you! :D *Virtually hugs back*
DeleteWell i don't think you are alone Ruhani...it's raining heartbreaks :/ Anyway not being 25 makes you all the more interesting and hugs? i doubt there is any soul who wouldn't want to hug someone as cute and jolly as you. You are the dancing queen...live up to your name ! :)
ReplyDeleteAww that's so sweet of you babe! :*
DeleteLong time No see.
ReplyDeleteGlad you blogged.
And I loved that picture. Only that my "5 Minute Existence Crisis" repeats after every half an hour.
It is nice to know that you decided to dance, blog, smile, jog, etc things. Hope to see more blogs.
And about "What does a girl need to do....." , I guess just spread your hands and you would get a handful of hugs.
I too am glad, Ajay! :)
DeleteHaha I shall keep that in mind for next time! :P
If there's one thing you musn't EVER do, it's trying to be someone you're not.
ReplyDeleteGood to read your post! Keep writing! :D
I've been doing that for a while now, since college started and it's not been keeping me very happy. Guess it's time to bring back the old, awesome me! :D
Delete[Sorry, a bit of self obsession is essential to boost my confidence at the moment :P ]
i kindoff hate it, when people like you become that. hard. distant. confused, fearful almost. get back. your happiness used to be toxic to everything negative around.
ReplyDeleteand regarding life, i couldn't tell you myself. i could tell you this though. in the back of your head, just know what you want the bigger picture to be. big house big car lots of dogs, swimming pool, free ice creams whatever.
glad to see you are back :)
Hahaha well said my friend! I shall keep the "car with a sunroof" that I so dearly want in the back of my head from now on! :D
DeleteA big virtual hug for you. Good to see you back. And for the people disappointing you, we're on the same plane! Welcome back sweetheart! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Sudeshna! :D <3
DeleteI went through something similar, at a similar time I guess. All I have got to say is, learn how to turn the suckiest times in your life into your strongest learning experiences. That just went into making me one of the most awesome 25 year olds I know now. :D
ReplyDeleteI shall keep that in mind. :) Advice like this really does go a long way. :)
DeleteMain aaraha hun waapis 28th ko.
ReplyDeleteAnd then you get that hug :)
YAY! BIG KOOCHAY HUG! :D
DeleteEven though we've not even talked in real, I miss the YOU wali you too !!! Change sucks soo much!! I agree... When things change around me, I go into my own little shell. But what to dooo... If people like you become sulky, the Universe won't be a happy place anymore. Hehe. But even your frustrated type blogs are so much fun to read. Keep blogging then =)
ReplyDeleteMotivation from people like you is really what keeps me going and encourages me to blog again! :) The feeling that people want to hear what I've got to say, that atleast here, I have a voice, is something that I can't possibly explain. It makes me smile even on the gloomiest of days! :)
DeleteThank you so much Ghazal Di. I shall bring the old me back. Very, very soon. :)
Y u be sad,Ru?
ReplyDeleteWe all love you.A LOT.And,this is just a stupid phase.It'll pass.And,You WILL be back with a bang.Let these stupid exams get over :| .We shall own the second sem B)
*Hug*
^Real one on monday :*
Fattaaaaaay YOU KNOW i LOVE YOU! :*
Delete*Hugs back*
RUUUU Glad you're back. Missed your craziness, I guess. Hope you go back to being the kick ass you :)
ReplyDeleteMuch love and the biggest hug ever! :D
Yuss I am going to try my level best to get back to the old me! :)
DeleteLove. :*
Even though I kept a somewhat loose track of you on Facebook,I'm SO glad that you're back! Welcome back with a capital 'W'! And don't worry,shit happens. You'll be just fine(or even better). I went through a similar phase post-Durga Pujo and I'm more than happy now. Everything that our heart cares for is overrated. Chill. And we are always there. Love.
ReplyDeleteThanks a bunch Soumi! :D Glad to know someone's listening! :)
DeleteYo!I think i'm pretty close to what you're talking about haha chill man :D
ReplyDeleteI think we need to partayy.SOON!And meet me in gurgaon :D
Go read my blog too :P
http://thefunnynamedblog.blogspot.in/
And no fake bullshit hugs till you meet me :P
Peace and Love haha
Haha Jojo! :D
DeleteAnd finally my favorite personality on this blogosphere is back =D
ReplyDeleteEven though his post is not what I expected, I like it.
And even though you're an architect, you still do have a life ;)\
Glad to see you back!
Ooh I think I am totally gonna pick that up for my blog's new subhead! :D
DeleteHi Ruhani, I used to visit your blog way back in 2012 i think. I loved the energy your posts had, the exuberence your words brought and all that. Then life took a toll on me.. I was lost.. stopped writing and became somebody I was not. I think I am on the recovery mode now..not sure though. Getting back to my blog is one way to recovery I thought. That's when I decide to visit your too.
ReplyDeleteI was surprised reading this post of yours..pleasantly surprised I would say. "So I am not alone", I told myself. I guess we all are at the same phase of life when, like you put it, things are changing too fast.. old relationships have gone and you don't like the new ones.. all a part of growing up, i guess..
Do write to me if you feel like sharing anything: sanjanapareek89@gmail.com.
May the force be with you!!